I honestly can say that these past six months have gone by really fast. This year has flown by. Christmas is around the corner (19 days to go) and then we enter a new year, filled with more challenges and adventures.
I can not believe that Baby Girl is 6 months old (young). The past month has had more downs then ups. I assume that she is starting to get them teeth, eish. Which means not a lot of sleep for me or Baby girl. She’s become very moody, almost like those two weeks before your period starts, when you are at your worst, well that’s her. Nothing is right, just when you think you have done something great and she smiles from ear to ear, tears and lots of screaming takes over. But it only last that long. Then we struggle to take a nap (in the end we don’t nap, so we stay up and then once again become tired, but not wanting to sleep and so it continues). Otherwise, all is well. She is rolling, sitting, holding her bottle, eating solids, loving bath time and loving nature. Note: when struggeling to get baby to calm down, let baby watch the leaves on the trees blow in the wind, soothing and calming effect.
This is also my last month of maternity leave. I have mixed emotions. I am sort of ready to start working again in January, but then I am not that ready to leave her with strangers. I don’t know how she will adapt and I do hope these teachers have a lot a patience. They should have right? Just knowing what I go through in a day…maybe Baby Girl just likes testing my patience, because she shows more than enough happiness when her dad walks into a room. Maybe she is tired of my face? I hope not. But maybe some change will do us both good.
Like I have mentioned, there has been a lot of downs, but when she smiles, my heart melts. She is precious in every single way and I am honoured to be her mom. I think what really has been challenging is doing a lot of things on my own, when help was not always available. I think that you need to go out more with friends or go to the gym or the movies, just to get some grown up sanity back again. I take my hat off for moms that have two kids or more and they have to take care of everything without any help. Good golly. It’s hard sometimes…
So here is my advise, if you have that day when you feeling blue and you just need some alone time, then you need to get out! Call a grandma or that friend that said that she would babysit anytime, and take some time for yourself. Even if it’s just a long nap. You need to breathe (get some oxygen into that brain again) and take back control, not just for your own good but for your baby’s as well. We need to love motherhood and should not be loafing it.
So here’s to the next six months! (Then Baby Girl will be One Year old!) Hip hip Hooray and Cheers!